Sweetly Broken

This song has spoken greatly to my heart. It's been stuck in my head for a week now.

Take a listen:

I'll leave you with some cuteness from Jax.
He loves his rope.

JAX

Meet Jax!

I was told by the rescue that he is a German Shepard/Boxer mix but a few people have said he looks more like he is mixed with Pit. Once I go to the vet to get his manly parts taken, I hope they can tell me. He is sooooo sweet! He has been in a shelter since he was 3 months old...He is 6months old now. He has a lot of training to do but he is already being attentive to some commands.

His name? If you watch Sons of Anarchy you"ll understand. Jax is one of the "badass" bikers.

(sleepy puppies)

I took the day off to be with him all day. I am technically only his foster mom right now to get a feel for him, but I am prettttyyyy sure ill be keeping him.

Miscellany Monday

ONE- As much as I would like to hide the fact that I am an emotional wreck and that my heart is so broken... I just can't. It was a bad weekend.
Well besides Sunday. Sunday was a good day. As I know I will have good and bad days through this....journey. For my new followers... Its been 3 weeks since the hardest breakup I have ever gone through. This is my journey of letting go and letting God work in my life. I can only get through this through Him.

TWO- Sometimes you have to listen to your body...
I was scheduled to run a 5k Saturday. Woke up around 5am and my body told me, straight up, NO. I was upset but knew that I have not been eating healthy since the break up, if eating anything at all. I have lost 10 lbs in 3 weeks. Oh and before you judge, let me just say...I LOVE FOOD. I try to force food down my throat. I'm a mess right now. I know things will get better.

THREE- Some Happiness...
I got a new gym membership...to LA Fitness. I really wanted to be able to do workout classes, since I have a lot of time on my hands now, and LA Fitness is sooo nice and only $10 more than what I have been paying at my current gym. I am hopefully planning a trip to CA next month! Realllllly excited. I NEED to get out of Orlando. I am reading so many great and helpful Christian books. They are really impacting me, my heart, and my walk with Christ. Oh! and God has put some amazing people in my life. Got to hang out with two on Sunday and am thankful they can give me advice and listen to my venting of the heart. I am blessed.

FOUR-WAITING ON GOD.
My dear friend Jamie had a blog post last night that hit home with me as I go through this journey. Waiting on God. This bible verse and this song touched my heart. Give the song a listen.

"Therefore I will look unto the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation: my God will hear me." Micah 7:7



FIVE-CHEERS
Here's to making it through another Monday, another day, and another week.

Letting Go Takes Love

To let go does not mean to stop caring,

it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off,

it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to enable,

but allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means

the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another,

it's to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for,

but to care about.

To let go is not to fix,

but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge,

but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,

but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To let go is not to be protective,

it's to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny,

but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,

but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,

but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,

but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past,

but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more.

To let go and to let God, is to find peace.

-Author Unknown

Cycling Adventures

I had a rather interesting 10 mile bike ride last night. Here are my reflections:

-Wind and a road bike DO NOT GET ALONG. Road bikes are very light weight bikes and when you add some strong wind into the mixture it is quite frightening.

-With the wind came a much harder resistance that I am not use to. My legs are a bit sore today and my arms/triceps got a great work out while clinging on for dear life. Oh and I can't even count the times I was hit in the face by an acorn, leaf, or bug. That being said, must remind myself to keep my mouth shut!

-Why don't my fellow cyclists smile, do a finger wave, or greet in passing? I do not get it. Motorcyclists do it. Annoys me.

-Know what else is annoying? People who take up the entire trail. HELLO! I swear one of these days I am going to accidentally run into one of them when they don't get out of the way. What happened to being courteous and staying on one side?! Grrr.

-I had a companion keep up with for about 5 minutes. Yeah...some random dog ran along side of me. I was nervous at first (thinking the dog was going to attack me and Trek) but then I laughed. Eventually the owner passed me on his bike and apologized saying the dog was with him. I was very impressed with the dogs ability to keep up!

I can't get over how much my love for cycling has grown.
Love you Trek! (im a dork, I know)

Miscellany Monday

{ONE} I have some absolutely amazing people in my life (you all know who you are...THANK YOU!). Anyway, I stumbled upon this quote this morning: "God doesn't give you the people you want; He gives you the people you NEED... to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

{TWO} It's been a while since I laughed realllly hard. Like an uncontrollable laughter that brings you to tears. Got together with two of my favorite people this weekend. They are such a blessing in my life.

{THREE} I have another 5k this Saturday. I actually forgot about it. Ha. And I took 4 days off from exercising. Oops. It was really needed though. I have just been so bleh. I know it's because my eating habits have been thrown off and my mind is wearing me out and leaves me with sleepless nights. I feel I will do better for this weekend's 5k though. Ah! Wish me luck!

{FOUR} So happy all my favorite shows begin this week! HOUSE, GLEE, Modern Family, Grey's Anatomy, OFFICE!
What's your favorite show?

Happy Monday friends!

Everything Falls

"When everything falls apart Your arms hold me together,
When everything falls apart You're the only hope for this heart."

Opened Eyes

(Photo by Rebel Belle Photography)

Happy Friday to all!

Again, I apologize for my blog absence. I have been doing a lot of thinking & praying. It's been amazing actually... a blessing. God has a divine plan and a funny way of doing things. My mom mentioned the other day that God is a jealous God and it had me thinking... I spend my mornings in worship but that is all I devoted to him. How foolish of me. I have been amazed at how much I have grown closer to Him in the past two weeks with prayer, deep thought, reading 3 christian love books. This week alone has been a clear sign that God is good. I have completely put my trust in Him. Given it ALL to him and have been comforted. I realized I have no control over what happens, whether one day that secret agent man and I will be together again or if there is someone else God has waiting for me. I will rejoice in either situation. Is it hard? Heck yes! Do I break down still? Absolutely! But... Faith makes things possible, not easy (thank you Cara for that quote).

So why has it been a blessing one might ask? Well I shall tell you. For the first time in my life I completely understand myself. I could never pinpoint past relationship problems...I thought it was always them. Me have problems? WHAT? Wake up Michelle! I have finally pinpointed MY problems and how to correct and change them. That's the beauty...YOU CAN CHANGE BEHAVIORS! I have learned so much about what it means to be truly in love. To truly give yourself, your heart to someone. And that a relationship involves two people working together, selflessly, patiently, willingly. I also learned that my Pride got in the way of arguments and I have hurt many people because of it and it has left unresolved conflicts that led to continuous fights. I am seeing a true relationship, a relationship committed to each other and to God, in a whole new light. And I love it. I get it. It makes perfect sense.

Thank you to all for your continuous support and prayers. Love you all more than words can express! Have a fabulous weekend!

Top 2 Tuesday

(link up!)

Top 2 things you want to accomplish before the end of the year:

-ONE-

Run a 5k in under 30 minutes. I was so disappointed in myself from the 5k I ran on Saturday. Granted it was one of the hottest days and I have never before run a 5k this early in the season...but I literally wanted to cry as I crossed the finish line. It was a struggle. And to have no one there (as in family/friends/etc) cheering me on was probably the worst part.

My time? 35:24 (makes me cringe) and my pace was 11:23.5 per mile.

MUST. DO. BETTER!

-TWO-

I want a changed heart. Yes, that is right. I want to have a selfless, patient, and kind heart. I can only accomplish this with the help of Him. Each day I pray for this. Each day God is working in my heart. Each day I have tasks in front of me where I can practice these acts. I long for it. I have never wanted something more. I have been doing so much thinking with all this time on my hands and have been shown that my heart wasn't in the right place. It was rude and selfish.

I am not perfect. But there is always room for improvement.

I love growing experiences like this. How lost I would be without my God. He is so good! Pray for me and the work God is doing in and through me.

*Amazing books I suggest*:

Love Dare (I know I am all about this book, but I can't help that it's so great!)

The Five Love Languages

Friday Misc

Man, this was the longest short week! Hurray for Friday.

I am skipping Polyvore Friday today. I keep wanting to pretend I am happy and everything is fine and it is so easy to pretend that on here. But I refuse to do that. I am heart broken and not myself. I apologize to my followers but I know you all understand. I continue to ask for your prayers.

-Tomorrow is my first 5k of the Fall season. Too bad it doesn't feel like Fall! I am actually nervous. My appetite hasn't been here this week and I feel it might cause me to not do my best and not to mention I am doing it alone. We shall see. All I know is I am going to give it the best that I have in me right now. Check back Monday for the results!

-Tomorrow is a Showdown In The Shoe.

The Ohio State Buckeyes and the University of Miami haven't met since 2003.

Miami seeks revenge.

& Ohio State will only make them cry again.

GO BUCKEYES!!!

-I heard a new song on the radio this morning, Brandon Heath-Your Love. I adore it, I broke down. Take a listen.

*Remember to say a prayer for the families who lost love ones on Sept. 11 and thank those heroes who serve our country. God Bless America*


Have a great weekend friends.

Love Dare: Patience

I have been racking my brain with questions of how the relationship got to this point. I decided to go back to my Love Dare book (highly recommended for couples) and found something that stood out to me on Day 25 (Day 26 is a good one too, I might post that tomorrow)...

"Patience helps you give your spouse permission to be human. It understands that everyone fails. When a mistake is made, it chooses to give them more time than they deserve to correct it. Patience gives you the ability to hold on during the tough times in your relationship rather than bailing out under the pressure. It is the gift of another chance, the promise that you will wait this one out for as long as it takes."

I am one who is quick to anger. Its something I have tried to get a hold on. I've improved and continue to work on it. Do I slip every now and then?...Yes. Im human. I am far from perfect. That is where my relationship with Christ comes in. He can help be change these ways, not who I am but my behaviors.

Take it to heart.

Ride for Awareness

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I am so blessed to have wonderful friends like you all.

Thank you so much for your comforting words and prayers.

They are more than appreciated.

My heart hurts but I know God is so good.

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Yesterday I signed up for Trek Women's Ride for Awareness!!!

You can choose from a 10 mile or 25 mile bike ride. I chose 10 miles. It's Trek & I's first ever event! I am very excited. This event is happening October 9, 2010 all over the U.S.

See if a city near you is doing it!

Miscellany Monday

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Happy Labor Day!!

One- I haven't posted a picture of Trek and I in awhile! I am wearing a BondiBand! After this post we're going on another ride...on a Monday! What a treat!

Two- I have a 5k this Saturday, Autumn Rock n Run 5k! I am stoked...but gotta get a few good runs in before then!

Three- I had this made for my best friend. It turned out great! You gotta check out Poppy Chic Jewelry!

Four- The boyfriend and I broke up last night. I hope it's just a break, that's the feeling I keep getting from God. I have never had my heart broken this way before. He is the one. God has made this clear to me. But I feel I have lost him. We had many fights and problems but I never thought it would come to this. I don't even know what to do or think other than pray. I find myself questioning God and that is so wrong of me to do. I know he has a plan but this really sucks. He is my best friend, the only person I have fully opened my heart to, my other half. Gah.

Did you & your boyfriend(or hubby) have a huge breakup or fight? How did you mend things back together? Was it just a matter of time... Any words of advice and prayer would be so appreciated right now. I refuse to give up on him and "us".

That's all I've got today... I hope you all have or had a wonderful holiday weekend!

Polyvore Friday

Happy Polyvore Friday & 3-day weekend!

Unfortunately, the East Coast is going to get slammed with rainy days. Booooo.
Here are a couple cute rainy day polyvores!

Bring on the Rain... by Cotton Tail featuring burberry boots

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*Faith, Fitness, Fun is doing 30 days of self-love reflection. Today is intrinsic beauty. I love this post. Go read it!*

It's Here!

My favorite time of year is here!

COLLEGE FOOTBALL 2010-2011 SEASON!

My heart is so happy.

My Team? THE OHIO STATE BUCKEYES!

In case you didn't know... we are ranked NUMBER 2.

I love Jim Tressel. I miss The Horseshoe.

First game is tonight. GO BUCKEYES!

Who is your favorite team??

Mer

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